Nerve wracking week ahead

Tomorrow marks week 7 of this pregnancy.

Last time week 7 was Good Friday. That evening I started spotting. I was okay and the bleeding slowed on Saturday. Then Sunday and Monday I layed around the house as the bleeding was stronger and I was really crampy. Monday we went to the ER where they couldn't tell me much except my HCG levels. I went in for bloodwork on Wednesday and found out Thursday that I was definitely miscarrying. All this before I hit 8 weeks of my pregnancy.

So here's to hoping history doesn't repeat itself.

Too many people

DH had to tell MIL yesterday because his grandma was going in for surgery and he wanted to make sure she had something to fight for. She's okay now, out of surgery, out of the ICU and on the cardiac floor. She was having irregular heart rhythms and such.

But, I'm really irritated. He told MIL and told her not to tell. She told SIL. We had only told my parents and he told one work guy and I told 1 (and one guessed). Last time we were PG, she blurted to SIL as soon as we told her, like yelled across the house. Our news to tell.... His aunt knows too, but that's because she was in the room when he told his grandma and mom.

But then because SIL heard it from MIL, she was upset that he didn't tell her. So DH, like an idiot, promises (at SIL's request) to tell earlier next time... Yeah, not going to happen. I understand with everything going on with his grandma he didn't want to bring up drama that would upset her but he should never have promised. He tried to explain that the reason he didn't tell was because it was really hard to untell when we miscarried last time. It seemed like she didn't get it.

So I now am going to make sure that they are aware that it is our news to share when we want to. Because they found out before I was ready to tell, I told DH that I will not be on the phone with anyone about this pregnancy until I'm ready. I will not become a walking talking incubator yet. I am still Allyssa, not just a pregnant person. If things get heated, I'm gonna be telling them something along these lines:

It's an intimate action between DH and I that caused the baby.
The baby is IN my body.
The baby will be coming out through MY vagina.

Why should anyone feel like they should know anything before we're ready.

On a side note, I'm really not looking forward to telling work. As soon as I do, I'm opening myself up to the stupid "how are you FEELING" small talk. I hate small talk as it is, this is just worse. It was like when we were wedding planning. That was all anyone could think to talk about and it got SOOOO irritating.

6 weeks

From babycenter.com

This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute — almost twice as fast as yours — and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones. Right now, your baby is a quarter of an inch long, about the size of a lentil.