Updated our story

Here's what I added:

SUMMARY OF THE BEGINNING OF LIFE FROM THE BEGINNING OF THIS BLOG UNTIL THE END OF FEB 2012

We got our first BFP on April 7 and it was a surprise. We were preventing with condoms but not hormonal birth control. The baby was a result of one single night of no protection. Yes, ladies, it can happen. I miscarried a few weeks later before hitting 8 weeks gestation. I struggled for a long time with it. My cycle was very irregular and went from a 28 day cycle before I got pregnant to a random all over the place cycle after. My first cycle lasted 107 days, the next one 76 days and the third 42 days. Those three cycles combined were about 8 months. On my fourth cycle, about 40 days in, I got my second BFP.

I'm currently writing this at almost 10 weeks along with this baby. We have heard the heart beat on our home doppler and seen it on an ultrasound. I'm very worried that I'll miscarry again but I'm trying to stay positive for stress' sake. I keep telling myself, we're past the point we miscarried last time and we've seen/heard the heartbeat and our chance of miscarriage are less than 5% right now. All the stories we read on BBC and faces of loss are women who's experienced it coming together to grieve together and that's why there seems to be more losses on sites like those.

Name change?

I wanna change my blog name now that I've seen and heard the heartbeat of the baby (heard it yesterday morning with the doppler at 9w3d).

Any ideas?

I've seen people go from:

• Life, Love and TTC to Life, Love and FINALLY Pregnant
• Barefoot, Trying to get Pregnant and in the Kitchen to Barefoot FINALLY Pregnant and in the Kitchen

Can't think of any others right now...

WDYT?

Ultrasound goodness

measuring 9 weeks 1 day

edd september 24

HR 167

So stoked and so thankful it was good news. My belly pics will start again on Monday/Tuesday as that's when my week changes over now.

Ultrasound

Today ended much better than Friday did. The ultrasound clinic called today and was all sweet and "oops, 14 week scan at 18 weeks, that won't work." So...  I have an u/s tomorrow. KMFX everything goes well. I'd appreciate any thoughts and prayers you can send me. I'm so nervous. My only other ultrasound experience was after my miscarriage and that wasn't a happy experience. I hope tomorrow's tears are tears of joy. I want to see a little bean dancing around inside.

DH was talking to me this morning and mentioned how excited he is to have someone in his life blood related to him. I just want to cry happy tears over everything today.

Feeling REALLY upset...

My doppler isn't here yet and it's still just 4 hours away probably stuck in customs.

I got my time for my u/s and they scheduled me for April 17. My doctor said WITHIN the next 10 days. The scan is also for someone LESS than 14 weeks and by April 17 I will be 18 weeks. I'm really pissed off and I just want to go cry. I called the u/s clinic and they only have an automated voice machine and I was so flustered and frustrated that I babbled. My doctor isn't in next week and so I don't know if the u/s clinic will believe me when it comes to having an appointment moved to before March 1 (my next appointment).

9 weeks

How your baby's growing:

Your new resident is nearly an inch long — about the size of a grape — and weighs just a fraction of an ounce. She's starting to look more and more human. Her essential body parts are accounted for, though they'll go through plenty of fine-tuning in the coming months. Other changes abound: Your baby's heart finishes dividing into four chambers, and the valves start to form — as do her tiny teeth. The embryonic "tail" is completely gone. Your baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are kicking into gear. The external sex organs are there but won't be distinguishable as male or female for another few weeks. Her eyes are fully formed, but her eyelids are fused shut and won't open until 27 weeks. She has tiny earlobes, and her mouth, nose, and nostrils are more distinct. The placenta is developed enough now to take over most of the critical job of producing hormones. Now that your baby's basic physiology is in place, she's poised for rapid weight gain.

How your life's changing:

You still may not look pregnant even if your waist is thickening a bit. You probably feel pregnant, though. Not only are morning sickness and other physical symptoms out in full force for most women, but you may feel like an emotional pinball as well.

Mood swings are common now — it's perfectly normal to feel alternately elated and terrified about becoming a parent. Try to cut yourself some slack. Most women find that moodiness flares up at around six to ten weeks, eases up in the second trimester, and then reappears as pregnancy winds to a close.