The bottom link is the video that was produced about my cousin and another girl. Such a shocker to me to see pictures of him at my wedding in there and even a picture of me. When my aunt and uncle were talking about the hospital and such, I just remembered the day my mom told me. I hope that this video can help some teens debating drugs and using. My cousin only did E recreationally. He was not on it all the time or anything. It was a bad batch that caused this but drugs are not safe.
Showing posts with label dying. Show all posts
Showing posts with label dying. Show all posts
Tuesday, 17 July 2012
Friday, 13 January 2012
Poison
The coroner's report on my cousin came back. He was poisoned. The ecstasy was laced with PMMA which apparently is far more deadly than the normal crap that's put into E.
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Connecting Alberta and BC deaths
I just don't understand this world we live in.
Google It
Connecting Alberta and BC deaths
I just don't understand this world we live in.
Tuesday, 3 January 2012
My family made the news :(
The news did a story about someone who is in the hospital because of ecstasy. It only took them three deaths to finally put this on the news... :( My aunt and uncle were interviewed.
http://www.ctvbc.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20120102/bc_abbostford_ecstasy_new_years_eve_120102/20120102/?hub=BritishColumbiaHome
http://www.ctvbc.ctv.ca/servlet/an/local/CTVNews/20120102/bc_abbostford_ecstasy_new_years_eve_120102/20120102/?hub=BritishColumbiaHome
Friday, 9 December 2011
Tuesday, 6 December 2011
Funerals
My cousin's funeral was yesterday. It was so depressing and sad but there were so many people there. I heard stories about him that I'd never known. His other grandpa wrote a note for someone to read. It was so sweet. He used to ask, "Who's your favourite grandpa Victor?" and Tyler would answer (when he was really little), "Grandpa Gordon." Everyone howled. It was my favourite memory of the service.
They had an open casket but I couldn't bring myself to look.
My aunt was a mess but my dad says she's grieving well. Apparently she contacted the dealer who sold the drugs and told him that she was the mom of the boy who died and she wouldn't release his name to the police if he went to a counselor (specified by her) and talked to her. He's already made contact and it's only been 8 days. My uncle is the one we're worried about right now because he's being strong for her and we don't know when he'll crash.
For so long, it was just three cousins on this side of the family and then 7 years ago, my mom's sister had a son and we became 4 cousins. It's hard to believe that we're just three again and we'll never be four again.
I don't have many recent memories of Tyler because it got harder to see him between all his classes and work after he graduated but he was an amazing guy.
His homestay brother from Korea, who lived with them for 5 years, managed to get leave from the Korean military (which isn't supposed to happen). He was heartbroken but I'm so glad that he could be there for them. They really needed him.
They had an open casket but I couldn't bring myself to look.
My aunt was a mess but my dad says she's grieving well. Apparently she contacted the dealer who sold the drugs and told him that she was the mom of the boy who died and she wouldn't release his name to the police if he went to a counselor (specified by her) and talked to her. He's already made contact and it's only been 8 days. My uncle is the one we're worried about right now because he's being strong for her and we don't know when he'll crash.
For so long, it was just three cousins on this side of the family and then 7 years ago, my mom's sister had a son and we became 4 cousins. It's hard to believe that we're just three again and we'll never be four again.
I don't have many recent memories of Tyler because it got harder to see him between all his classes and work after he graduated but he was an amazing guy.
His homestay brother from Korea, who lived with them for 5 years, managed to get leave from the Korean military (which isn't supposed to happen). He was heartbroken but I'm so glad that he could be there for them. They really needed him.
Sunday, 27 November 2011
Sadness
Is it okay that most of the time I'm sad but not crying?
With my grandpa he lived far, far away and therefore I was able to go about my day to day life without thinking about him dying. He wasn't a regular occurrence in my day to day life, therefore things weren't all that changed for me.
This cousin lived a 2 hour ferry ride (costs over $100 to go across and back) away. It's closer, but still not close enough that he was a regular occurrence in my day to day life as well.
What I'm saying, I guess, is that it feels wrong to not be really upset. I think I MAKE myself feel sadder by thinking about him, the same way I did with my grandpa. It just feels wrong.
With my grandpa he lived far, far away and therefore I was able to go about my day to day life without thinking about him dying. He wasn't a regular occurrence in my day to day life, therefore things weren't all that changed for me.
This cousin lived a 2 hour ferry ride (costs over $100 to go across and back) away. It's closer, but still not close enough that he was a regular occurrence in my day to day life as well.
What I'm saying, I guess, is that it feels wrong to not be really upset. I think I MAKE myself feel sadder by thinking about him, the same way I did with my grandpa. It just feels wrong.
Tragedy
Today is one of those days where life takes over all thoughts of TTC. My cousin Tyler died this morning in the hospital (we think) as a result of a drug overdose. I'm positive he wasn't a drug addict but this is still unreal. It's like something that happens in a TV show, not real life.
My family has more questions than answers at this point but from what we know, he asked his friend to take him to the hospital because he was feeling strange and on the way, he slipped into a coma. As far as I know, he never came out of his coma.
He was 20 years old, an only child and one of only 4 first cousins I have in my entire family.
Below is a picture of me, my brother (tall in blue), my other cousin (little one) and Tyler. This was taken at my wedding. These are all the cousins on my mom's side of the family.
Can you imagine what it would be like to slip into a coma, or go to sleep and never wake up? I think this is a really depressing thought and all I can picture right now, is someone locked away in their body screaming but not being heard. I know this is probably not true, but where is he? Where is my cousin?
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