Changes

I think before my miscarriage and my pregnancy, I was looking forward to being pregnant almost more than having a baby.

Things changed with the miscarriage. I think atm, I do still WANT to be pregnant but I know that every day of my pregnancy I will be hoping and praying that everything goes alright.

I don't think that I will ever be able to relax again. When I'm pregnant, I won't relax and when I have a baby I know I'll be terrified of SIDS too.

I can't imagine my next pregnancy ending in miscarriage but I couldn't imagine that with my last one either... :( I'm getting better at picturing myself with a baby now but I don't know what I will do if I lose my next one (whenever we get pregnant again).