Hide and seek baby

Saw a different doctor yesterday to try find the HB again. The Dr. told me that at 10 weeks it's about a 50% chance to find the HB and at 11 weeks it's about a 80% chance to find it. It took him a while and a few diff ways (knees up/knees down) but eventually he found baby, right behind the placenta that was beating with my HB as well. I was thrilled to hear and and so relieved. It was beating around 152 which now makes hubby say "IT'S A BOY!" because that's how it worked with his friend's boy. High 160's at first, then settled to 150's. Yeah sorry hun but it really points to a girl at this point given the timing of conception.

I'm still pretty sure it's a girl and I will be disappointed that it's a boy for two reasons:

1. I would be wrong :P (Mama's intuition)
2. Girl clothes are so cute and all this time I've been looking at M&K's 19 m.o. girl and thinking how cute her clothes are.

I'll be thrilled for a healthy baby either way of course.

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Why do you lie to me?

A coworker blabbed to the lady (J) I job share my blind student with. J wanted to back off of the student's team next year because he's going into grade 7 and it's a hard year and she wanted to give him the transition year before high school. This coworker went to J and told her that she might want to stay with the student because I was pregnant. HOW THE FUCK IS IT HER BUSINESS?!

Then J spoke to our boss lady when she sat J down to talk about the student for next year. Boss already knew and J asked discreetly to test the waters and see if boss knew. That's okay, that's fine. So boss comes to me today and tells me I might want to be careful who I tell. I was confused and then she told me that that lady had blabbed to J. I was almost in tears.

So I confronted the coworker as non confrontational as I could. Asking her "did you tell J?" and she said no. So I told her what boss had told me and asked if maybe she overheard her talking to someone. So she says that maybe J overheard her and I talking.

After school I talk to J and apologized because I should have been the one to tell her, not the other lady. I asked J a couple questions and J tells me that no, she didn't overhear, she TOLD her. I double checked that it wasn't a "GUESS WHAT?" type of thing and it wasn't but when I heard the real story, it wasn't much better honestly.

It WASN'T her business. My mom is a boss too. If she was that concerned about our student she could ask my mom what was going on. But NO, she had to go and stress J out and pull this shit on her.

Poor J is stressed to the max. When her stress levels go down a bit, I'll confront coworker who told. I just don't want coworker to stress J out more at this moment. So as far as work is concerned (mostly that coworker actually), I'm not talking about the baby. I'm not sure what I'll say, but thankfully there's one week left (plus half day friday for me) and then it's spring break for two weeks. After that, I'll be out to the admin (principal plus the boss that I had problems with last year) and soon after I'll be out to the whole staff.

This coworker was my friend. I need to confront her to save our friendship, if that's even possible at this time. I'm not sure I can trust her again after she LIED to me.

Edit as of Apr 20: I confronted her last week and all is good now. She told the truth and we talked and now I don't even think about it anymore when I see her.

11 weeks

How your baby's growing:

Your baby, just over 1 1/2 inches long and about the size of a fig, is now almost fully formed. Her hands will soon open and close into fists, tiny tooth buds are beginning to appear under her gums, and some of her bones are beginning to harden.

She's already busy kicking and stretching, and her tiny movements are so effortless they look like water ballet. These movements will become more frequent as her body grows and becomes more developed and functional. You won't feel your baby's acrobatics for another month or two — nor will you notice the hiccupping that may be happening now that her diaphragm is forming.

If you're like most women, you're feeling a bit more energetic now and your nausea may be starting to wane. Unfortunately, you may also be suffering from constipation (caused by hormonal changes, which can slow digestion) and heartburn (hormones again, relaxing the valve between your stomach and esophagus). Just remember, all this discomfort is for a good cause.

Don't worry if nausea has made it impossible for you to eat a wide variety of healthy foods or if you haven't put on much weight yet (most women gain just 2 to 5 pounds during the first trimester). Your appetite will likely return soon, and you'll start to gain about a pound a week.

Symptoms in full force

My symptoms have been crazy present since last week. It's like the baby is trying to reassure me "I'm okay in here still, don't worry". Crazy sore boobs still, m/s in full force. I was sick yesterday morning and nauseous basically every time I'm sitting at home.

I'm praying they'll hear the HB at this next appointment on Thursday because I know I'll really freak if they don't. I'm still a little bit worried but the symptoms being crazy strong are really helping me to feel better about it.

On a side note, this heavy beating heart is driving me bonkers. I can feel it pounding (normal speed) in my throat and chest and other parts of my body randomly. Damn extra blood pumping through my body. I'd really love to sit still and try focus on my body as the baby gets stronger to see if I can feel anything.

Happy break

Nervous

10w3d today and the Dr. couldn't find the HB on his doppler. It finds at the earliest at 10 weeks. Now I wouldn't be nervous if we were able to find it ourselves or if we had never heard it. But we found it last thursday at 9w3d on our doppler and haven't been able to find it since.

I have another Dr. appointment next Thursday to try find it again and if they can't, they'll send me for another u/s to double check.

KMFX. I'm trying to stay calm.