One year

Today marks one year that my husband has been living in Canada. The year just seems like it flew by... Wow

BFN, BFN and blood work

I've gotten 2 BFN's this week on days I suspected I should test. I also went to the Dr. hoping he'd put me back on birth control and he just sent me for blood work. He also won't put me on BC until mid november. There goes ANY chance of getting PG before my due date.

Cycle 2...

Technically we're on cycle #2 of TTC, yet we've been TTC since my M/C which was almost 5.5 months ago. This is getting stupid. I'm hoping that this is the cycle that either gets us pregnant again or this is the cycle that starts me back on a normal 29 day cycle.

Apparently, with my temperature changes, my app thinks that I was fertile recently, but we'll see what happens there. That would mean that I'm in the TWW and should be expecting AF, or a BFP within a week.

The Mayonnaise Jar

When things in your life seem, almost too much to handle, When 24 Hours in a day is not enough, Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee. A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar And proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students..., if the jar was full. They agreed that it was. The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was. The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.' The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed. 'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided, 'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things - family, children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions – Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car. The sand is everything else --The small stuff. 'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued, there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life. If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, You will never have room for the things that are important to you. So... Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness. Play With your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal. 'Take care of the golf balls first -- The things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.' One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented. The professor smiled. 'I'm glad you asked'. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem, there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.' Please share this with other "Golf Balls" I just did.

This is post #100 :)

Maternity Doctors

My friend M just had a her 2nd baby at the beginning of September and had one the previous August as well. I was talking to her about her doctor and I think I'd like him to be my maternity doctor when I get there again.

She said that with any spotting, he sent her for an u/s and that's something I'll feel better with. Also, she seems to think that he will send me for an u/s first thing to find out when the baby is due. That's also something I'd feel better with.

He delivered her and her two babies and I'll definitely be making an appointment with him when I get my BFP.

Whale or Mermaid?

A while back, at the entrance of a gym, there was a picture of a very thin and beautiful woman. The caption was “This summer, do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?”

The story goes, a woman (of clothing size unknown) answered the following way:

“Dear people,

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, seals, curious humans), they are sexually active and raise their children with great tenderness.

They entertain like crazy with dolphins and eat lots of prawns. They swim all day and travel to fantastic places like Patagonia, the Barents Sea or the coral reefs of Polynesia.

They sing incredibly well and sometimes even are on cds. They are impressive and dearly loved animals, which everyone defend and admires.

Mermaids do not exist.

But if they existed, they would line up to see a psychologist because of a problem of split personality: woman or fish? They would have no sex life and could not bear children. Yes, they would be lovely, but lonely and sad. And, who wants a girl that smells like fish by his side?

Without a doubt, I’d rather be a whale.

At a time when the media tells us that only thin is beautiful, I prefer to eat ice cream with my kids, to have dinner with my husband, to eat and drink and have fun with my friends.

We women, we gain weight because we accumulate so much wisdom and knowledge that there isn’t enough space in our heads, and it spreads all over our bodies.

We are not fat, we are greatly cultivated.

Every time I see my curves in the mirror, I tell myself: “How amazing am I?!"

-Written by Delphine Fieburg

The girl on the picture is French model Tara Lynn

Butting heads...

I feel like I'm butting heads with a coworker. I tried giving ideas today and I felt so shot down like she wasn't willing to hear my ideas and take them seriously. I HATE HATE HATE being a young one.