One week apart

Honestly it seems like everyone around me is pregnant. And I'm not kidding. Sometimes I go out and think to myself, hey I haven't seen anyone pregnant yet and then suddenly like 2 walk by.

I talked to someone at work yesterday who's due about 1 week before I was. It was so nice to talk to her about miscarriages and such. She had one recently and so she was better for me to talk to than the ladies at work with kids my age who had them a long time ago. It made me sad. But it made me feel better. It gave me hope.

Ready...

Ok! I love my dog so much. He sat with the rawhide on his nose so I could take this picture!!

Losing weight

Wow today was rough... I was terrified of going back to work but I shouldn't have stressed that much. I'm still terrified to confront her again though one on one because I bet I will cry again. That's just who I am.

However... the reason today was rough is because I was SO HOT ALL DAY. I sweated like a pig. I weighed myself this morning and I'm 10lbs above where I started before losing weight. It's rough. I can't believe it :( I'm going to get my ass back on Weight Watchers probably tomorrow. Otherwise I'm going to see what I can do myself for a couple weeks and see if I can do it.

I feel so fat. My clothes aren't even comfy anymore and I won't buy anymore at this size because I am unhappy with my weight.

Stress

I'm stressed out about work starting tomorrow. I haven't felt this scared and anxious about something in so long.

I'm worried that through temping I will find out that I don't O often and that I have anovulatory cycles. I'm stressed about that and I know stressing about that makes it more likely that my cycle won't be regular.

I feel so messed up.

Blizzcon

http://us.battle.net/blizzcon/en/live-stream/

I really want to go to BlizzCon! Like live, not on tv. Maybe 2012?

Taking Charge of Your Fertility

My friend lent it to me today. My first thought was that it's as big as the Bible... wow. I can't wait to read it :)

Three months ago...

... I wouldn't have been okay with AF showing up after my miscarriage. However, I was totally ready for her now.

I'm thankful that my cramps aren't as bad as the ones three months ago. That would be mentally painful.

Well...

... my suspicions were correct. Not the way I had hoped, however, but it's a start. AF showed up yesterday. Time to get down to the temping and opks... Just gotta read into exactly how to use them :)

Planet of the Apes

I love all the movies and I loved the prequel too. It's an awesome background to how the apes took over!!

Clingy...

I was at Disneyland yesterday and with some family including a newish couple. They are great people and I love them. But, they're so clingy. They had no eyes for anyone else. They complained when we wanted to go on single rider to be fast. They'd rather wait 75 mins to go together than spend 5 mins on the ride apart. That makes no sense to me. They were rarely seen not holding hands. It was so irritating and they wouldn't even ride with anyone else. IMO, clingy couples probably won't last. They'll get sick of each other soon. Again I say, I love them. I just didn't love the way they acted all day.

Suspicions...

I'm positive that I will either get a positive test or AF within two weeks. Kmfx!!!

Feeling positive = jinx?

Well I'm feeling positive about things right now given some signs. I feel like either AF should show in the next 2 weeks or I might be pregnant before that. I'm hoping that I'm not jinxing myself by feeling positive.

What the Dr. said

He wasn't worried that it's been three months since my mc with no sign of AF. He told me to give it 6 weeks and then he will put me on BC to make AF show up.