Feeling nervous...

My friend just called me and told me she needs to show me something. She sounded excited and we booked a time for when I'm back from my vacation. I don't know what I'll do if she comes to me with an ultrasound picture or something showing she's pregnant. They've had troubles getting pregnant and I would be happy for them if they were but I would be sad for me...

Painting

We did MORE painting today. It was fun.... NOT. All I could think of, since it was just me and mom painting, was work. Some of the time we were talking but a lot of the time, I was alone with my thoughts and thinking about everything still makes me tear up.

Here's a *semi* before picture and an after picture:

The before walls were all brown with a darker brown on the fireplace wall. Now it's all one colour and we might repaint it soonish. Mom is undecided if she wants to paint the fireplace wall a different colour or just repaint the brick around the fireplace. The colour it is now, is kinda dirty looking.

Dr. appt

I have a Dr. appt today to let him know about my non existent cycle. I hope he has something he can give me to jumpstart it. It's getting depressing knowing there's NO chance of being pregnant and I was hoping to get pregnant this summer at the latest, putting me at a April/May due date but it doesn't look like that will happen.

So much I want to do

Right now, I have so many things I want to do, but I default to my regular things that I always do.

I want to:

• play world of warcraft
• watch tv shows
• watch netflix
• read all of my books over again
• go walk with my dog
• get my ass into shape
• go swimming at the lake
• read blogs

My defaults are playing world of warcraft and watching tv shows at the same time.

Google +

I just joined Google + yesterday. It seems awesome right now and there are so many good things about having an android phone and using it.

I say this nicely, as I've been using Facebook since 2006. Die Facebook!

Anniversaries and milestones

For some reason, the last two anniversaries that fell in my house have also been connected with milestones in my past pregnancy. My parents' anniversary, May 25, was the day after I was going to hear our baby's heartbeat for the first time. Our anniversary, July 3, was around the time that we would get our first ultrasound.

I would have been 19 weeks right now. I'm so depressed.

A picture a day

I've been taking one picture a day and posting them in a facebook album and I've only missed a few days. I've cheated then and actually taken a picture the next day of what I was doing the previous day but I've been good.

It really helps me remember what I was doing and when. I really recommend it to everyone to try.

AF is a no show

This is getting irritating. I'm going to go the Dr. and find out when AF still hasn't shown since my miscarriage... ugh

Night time

This is what I do when I'm bored at night. Aren't I awesome?

P.S. The blue is cookie dough with white/milk chocolate chips and the pink is bittersweet chips.

1st Anniversary

It's our anniversary. I remember what we were doing 1 year ago today :)

I woke up to breakfast in bed. It was so sweet.

I have the best husband in the world!

Swagbucks

So I just changed over my google chrome default search bar to be swagbucks instead. Let's see how many swagbucks I can earn!

Happy Canada Day!

One year ago, we were at our stag/stagette parties and having relatives arrive for our wedding.

Happy Canada Day!

I love my dog

Isn't he beautiful? Look at his gorgeous eyes!